Not just the feeling of being invisible among a group of people who are obviously seen, heard and understood. It can be painful, yes. But there’s a second, and much deeper, layer.

The deeper wound happens after years of feeling unseen

After a while, you start making sense of it.

You don’t think, “They didn’t recognize me.”

You think, “Am I invisible?”
Or, “My timing is always wrong!”
Or, “Maybe I need to become more useful, more visible, more impressive, more easy to understand - LOUDER!”
Or “What is wrong with me, why can’t I be right?”

And that’s where the trouble begins.

You start pulling back, into yourself. You start to look for the right timing. The right time to speak. To comment. To show something. To be part of the group.

Now, you’re no longer simply waiting for the correct recognition. Now you’re trying to earn acceptance. By being better, do more (or less), be more significant - to be what you interpret as a better person.

You start to mimic the Manifesting Generators or the Generators, because they are the ones who set the stage - or at least that is how you see it.

Recognition and acceptance are not the same

Recognition comes from the outside, from other people. When the right people actually see you. They see your depth. They see your insight. They see that you aren’t here to throw generic advice around you. You are here to guide and to see what others miss. You are here to bring precision. The louder you are, the more you miss, And what’s worse, your advice falls to the ground. We need recognition!

Acceptance , however, is deeper. It comes from within. Acceptance is when you deeply feel, “I am whole, I am all of me, I am enough, whether they see me today or not.”

I think this is where many Projectors get into pain. Because when the outside world doesn’t recognize us, we start withdrawing acceptance from ourselves.

That’s the wound.

It isn’t the lack of loud recognition, applause, verbal invites, not the roaring silence you can almost hear.

The wound is when you start believing that other people are more worth because they are seen and you’re not. It becomes evidence of value.

Honestly, though, that is a brutal lie. It sounds so reasonable when you’re tired. It sounds so convincing when you’ve been overlooked again, or when someone else with half your depth gets the opportunity, the client, the stage, the praise, the attention. Or when they say the same thing as you a week later, and they get the recognition, while you, who invented the thing get crickets.

This is what causes the bitterness. This is the shadow. And it stops success dead in its tracks for you.

Instead of brushing it off and recognize yourself, you start thinking
“What am I doing wrong?”

So… what if that isn’t the right question

Maybe the better question is, “Why am I trying to be recognized by people who don’t actually have the eyes for me?” It can be very hard to admit that everyone doesn’t.

It isn’t an insult. It’s just what is.

Some people won’t recognize your depth because they aren’t looking for depth. Some people won’t value your guidance because they only want quick fixes or the appraisal. Some won’t understand who you actually are.

Here’s a little secret, between you and I, they may feel intimidated by you, and no, they will never admit it! Your insight and smartness can make them feel less, and it’s honestly got nothing to do with you! Your insight interrupts the story they are telling themselves. This makes you a threat they close their eyes and ears to, and all of a sudden you feel unseen.

So if you keep trying to be accepted by those people, you will start editing yourself into something smaller. You’ll make yourself more available than you actually are. You will explain more than you need to. You’ll serve truths in a muddled way, that were supposed to be spoken clearly. You will over-deliver to prove you are worth the invitation (that may never come anyway). You will give guidance to people who didn’t really ask for it, then wonder why you feel bitter when they don’t receive it.

Don’t fret, though. That bitterness isn’t there to shame you.
It’s there to remind you of your worth.

It says, “Something is off here.” “You’re selling yourself cheap.” “You’re trying to be chosen among people you haven’t even asked yourself if you’d choose them back.”

Let me say that again:
You’re trying to be chosen among people you haven’t even asked yourself if you’d choose them back.

This is important!

We talk so much about Projectors waiting for the invitation, but I don’t think we talk enough about the fact that Projectors also get to choose.

The invitation isn’t only, “Do they want me?” A better question is, “Is this invitation correct for me?”

[The right question is actually: “IS this really an invitation?” However, that is a full story for a future article, so stay tuned for that.]

So let’s continue this.

The better questions are: “Do I feel recognized here? Do I feel respected here? Do I feel my guidance can actually hit home here? Do I feel good in this exchange? Do I want to bring my wisdom into this room, this relationship, this client container, this collaboration, this conversation?”

People can want your insight without respecting your energy, and they can ask for your help without actually recognizing your depth. They can want access to you because you are useful, sharp, intuitive, emotionally perceptive, and good at seeing what they cannot see. But that doesn’t mean they are correct for you.

And please, it definitely does not mean you should override yourself just because someone finally noticed you.

This is where the healing begins. Not in becoming more or trying harder or sharing Projector wisdom on demand. But in coming back to a very simple truth:

Their recognition determines access to me. It does not determine my worth.

When you acknowledge that, you stop making every unanswered message mean something about your value. You stop making every lack of response a little courtroom where your worth is on trial. You stop chasing people who only half-see you. You stop trying to fit into rooms where you so desperatly want to belong - but don’t.

And …. you stop calling it rejection every time you’re not invited the right way.
[Yes, more on that in my future article you’ll stay tuned for]

Sometimes it isn’t rejection it’s protection, moving you away from people who would have drained you, used you, misunderstood you, or celebrated only the parts of you they could understand.

But hey! We’re not going to pretend Projectors are made of iron. It hurts to not be seen. Especially when you know you have something real to offer. It hurts like H*LL!! That pain can hit you when you least see it coming too. Which hits harder, because you thought you were in a better place, and all of a sudden you’re pulled back to that shadow state, and wonder what happened.

Please. Do not run after the people or situations that cause you to put yourself back there. The healing is to stop missing yourself. Stop abandoning yourself. Own knowing the second someone doesn’t validate it. Stop collapsing into doubt because someone else couldn’t recognize the value in front of them.

Healing in sight

You’ve been giving too much to people who didn’t recognize your insight. It can be very upsetting! It’s doing something to you, and it can cause severe resentment.
Not because you’re wrong. But because you keep placing something valuable in front of people that don’t actually know what they’re receiving.

They receive on the surface, when you were aiming two levels deep.

How you heal that?
Well, as a Projector myself, I was told to be more positive, use affirmations, think caring thoughts and practise self care. Guess what?! It didn’t help!

The healing starts when you stop making other’s lack of recognition mean something about your worth. When you can feel the old story rise: “They didn’t see me, so maybe I don’t matter”, PAUSE!

Say, “NO! This isn’t about me. (It isn’t,)
It isn’t necessarily about them either. Look for evidence. Is this happening to other people too? I bet you’ll find it is. They just don’t go down over it.

Thist changes everything.

Being useful isn’t the same as being valued. Attention isn’t the same as recognition. An invitation isn’t automatically correct just because it finally arrives.

The clue

Stop offering your insight everywhere and anywhere. Come all the way home to yourself, come back into dignity.

It makes a huge difference.

The wound heals when the you stand steady in your own life, thinking:

I’m not waiting to be accepted. I accept myself first.
Then I wait for the recognition that shows me where my energy is actually meant to go.

Then go out there and invite the RIGHT people into your life.

Image of “younger me” in the back by CHatGPT

Yes, you’re choosing yourself, but for what?

You’re in a different room. The people in here are different. They look like you, talk like you and walk like you - and they have the same challenge: Midlife solutions aren’t cutting it anymore. Why? Because everything they say about midlife feels like something you’ve already been through. You’re leaving that behind.

Okay, let’s be fair. You’re still affected by your midlife learnings. You’re just done making the midlife decisions now, and you’re ready for new inner - and outter - growth.

Women who feel well past midlife don’t have many places to turn.

There just aren’t that many people out there who have something to offer to this group. 60 and 70 is the new 40 and 50. And what do we know about the 40s and 50s? That used to be the age when companies, bosses and different kinds of reqruiters looked at as DONE. Done being an asset in corp. Done being employable.

And frankly, it’s at that time WE as women actually want something else too. So we did that. We went all in. We didn’t even have that guidance, but we went ahead and did it anyway.

When I was 50, I quit my well-paid job as a Communication and PR Agent in corp. No security net. Then I purchased a one-way-ticket to Austin TX, bought a van and drove out into the desert for three months alone. THAT was mind-expanding!

After those three months, I settled in Encinitas CA, where I started my brand new business: Coaching & Coffee on the Beach. I LOVED it!!! After two years, I moved to Norway to paxck up and move to Encinitas. Two days after arriving in Oslo, however, I met the love of my life. And stayed here.

I took my business online.

I helped people discover their purpose. Raise their frequency using the Archetypes, which they by the way had to find themselves. None of my sentences start with “you are….!” Who you are and what you are good at - and which challenges you are going through? It’s up to you to discover and heal. I teach you how, though. And make it really easy for you. For this reason I don’t read your Human Design chart either.

Image of “younger me” in the back by CHatGPT

Now what?

We’ve quit corp. We’ve done the shift. We’re not done. We’re not stepping down. We are NOT pulling back. But what is that purpose we want to step into.

We’re trying to find new passions, a new purpose, our people inside spaces built for women 10 to 20 years younger, with a different agenda, different pressure, different pace. I honestly LOVE being in those spaces, and I’m not leaving them.

When the conversation about “this new cycle” is mostly led by women in their early 50s, though, it can feel like listening to a translation of the life you’ve already lived.

There’s a real discrepancy between the 50s and the 60s. It determines what you want, need and where you want to go from here. Time is less. You start to feel that og, maybe 20 more years, if I am lucky. It seriously shapes who you are willing to be and what you’re no longer willing to do.

So let’s look at this from a different angle

It’s no longer about age. It’s not about the midlife choices you have or have not made.
It’s about stepping into a different kind of authority. The Sage. The Visionary. The Elder. Oh please, let us take back that word: ELDER. It sounds so wise and insightful and somehting I have always had deep respect for. In tribes I have frequented - for instance the Maori tribe - the eldest woman speaks last. Nobody speaks when she has spoken. Sounds amazing, doesn’t it?

This is not the authority of titles.
Honestly, even in corp, I never had a title. Yeah, there IS such a thing as no titles when you’re someone like me. I never bothered, to be honest.

So it’s not about that. The titles. It’s more the authority of your experiences, the weight you’ve carried, the obstacles you overcame, the crisis you survived.

You’re no longer interested in repeating old lessons just to prove that you’re still “growing”. You’re interested in building from everything you’ve integrated. That’s a whole diffrent energy.

The 50s? Chiron?
Gave me the direction, the big layer of learning and growing in freedom from so many responsibilities.

The 60s? My Second Saturn Return?
It’s giving me a new depth - new composure, serentiy.
It’s sharpening my vision. Developing my insights.

In Human Design, we have cycles that describe the transitions we move through

Chiron is often talked about as the profound midlife cycle. Wisdom. Healing. Maturation. Legacy. We’re never done with Chiron. It’s a layer we need through the rest of our lives.

What’s interesting, is that when I read my Chiron chart for the first time, I could see how deeply I had lived it before I had any language for it. Before I knew in theory how it affected me, and I found myself nodding, and nodding and nodding.

Life added a layer to me long before I could name it. Quite cool, isn’t it?

From 2010 to 2019, I lived my Chiron. And looking back, I can clearly see the shift began right at the time that cycle began. That’s when I quit that job. Ended my relationship. Sold my house. My mother had just passed away after 15 years of terrible illness, and my son was an adult, leaving home. I changed everything!

However.
I’m not willing to stay in that midlife loop forever.
I’ve felt another shift after 2019. It’s been as profound and mindblowing as my Chiron cycle.

Second Saturn Return is lighting a new fire in me, where Chiron had me bored to my bones. And you know what’s strange? Chiron all of a sudden became more interesting in the light of Second Saturn Return.

It’s a rise. A rise in voice. A rise in clarity. A rise in relevance.

When I turned 60, a new voice was ringing through. An urge to stop trying to be smart. A need to say it as I see it. Not being so afraid of being a bit blunt. Without hurting poeple, of course. I wasn’t angry anymore, and chose my barricades more wisely.

If anyone calls me too much? I’d say that is pretty accurate.
We’re allowed to when we are the elders.

You know this, right? That elderhood has been markedet as

• slower

• softer

• smaller

• “making peace with less”

Yeah… we’re not there!

We have power. We don’t have to edit what we see as true anymore. We don’t have to be smooth to be accepted. Your voice has authority because you’re no longer trying to prove yourself.

You have a depth. An edge. A precision you did not have before.

If you feel that you’ve outgrown midlife. That you no longer speak with that voice. If you wonder what your purpose isnow, how you can put it to action? If you feel this, you’re not late. You’re on time.

Suscribe to my channel for more of this.
And if you want my help to discover your new purpose and develop your Thought Leadership, send me a message, and let’s talk.

You are here to be relevant.
We are The Voices of A New Era.

And the world needs us.

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A cold, self-important answer that leaves you with the feeling that they are somewhat proud of themselves for standing their ground and keepig their boundaries. Self-righteous, actually.

Like a client of mine, who reached out to her former coach, enthusiastically showing her what she had created after learning from that coach. She got a cold shoulder. An answer that was so stingy that she was left completely shocked!

And if you’ve ever been on the receiving end of that, you know it’s not the decline itself that stings. It’s the tone, the words, the way your excitement gets handled like an interruption to their greatness.

Because what that kind of response really says is: “I heard you, and I chose to shut you down. I saw your trust and vulnerability, and I made it about me. You brought something personal, and I treated it like a disruption.”

Honestly? It doesn’t come across as strength and leadership. Mature, present, generous people don’t respond like that.

Yes, boundaries are real. However, so is dignity.

You don’t have to love everything people share with you. You don’t have to read every caption, watch every video, or engage deeply with every invitation, project, or offering that lands in your inbox. You get to have boundaries. You get to have preferences. You even get to say no.

But as I’ve grown older, have more patience and more insight in other peoples’ reactions, I’ve come to this: There is a line, and it’s not subtle. It’s about respect, acknowledgement, and patience with other people. And generosity.

A boundary sounds like: “Thank you for sharing. I’ll try til make time to look at it, but since we don’t work together anymore, I may not be able to go in depth in my answer. Well done, though!”

[Also AI-generated]

A door in the face sounds like: “Here is my worldview, my standards, my superior discernment, but good luck with your project! (comes across as: “And here’s why sharing this with me is wrong.”

The first answer protects your energy.
The other one is just stomping on someone to make yourself look superior.

I want to say this directly, because it matters:

When someone shares something personal, especially if it’s new, especially if it comes after a hard season (which you probably know nothing about!), they are sending you their trust in you, and a hope that their effort means something, and is acknowledged by you.

Even when the message looks casual, there’s often a quiet question underneath it: - -

• Can I approach her here without being punished for it?

• Can I share this without feeling small?

Some people have a habit of turning every interaction into a declaration of identity. And oh, yes! It IS a declaration of identity, just not the declaration you thought you were giving.

Now, I have seen coaches say things in the lines of: “She thinks I’ll let her be a free-rider, or what makes her think she can get stuff from me for free?”

So when someone reaches out, and instead of meeting the moment with simple warmth, the responder launches into what they stand for, what they reject, what they no longer have capacity for, and why their position is so very clear. They usually also add something along the lines of “You and I obviously see things differently!” The exchange isn’t about the person who reached out anymore. It’s about the responder and their “branding statement”.

Please….

If someone has been a client, a student, a customer, a community member… if trust has existed, your words carry more weight than you probably think. Your rejection feels harder to take. Your dismissal cuts deep. And yes, it does leave a mark.

It leaves a mark even with tough people; it’s really not about being fragile.

You might think you’re “just being clear.”

But what the other person often feels is something else entirely. They feel the coldness. And people do remember. Not necessarily the words, but they do remember how you made them feel.

They remember whether your values made you kinder, or if your “clarity” came with an attitude problem.

However.. Dignity matters.

When someone comes toward you openly, and you answer in a way that makes them feel smaller, you have done more than express an opinion. You’ve failed in communication, you failed a relational test.

What makes this worse is that people often call this authenticity.

They act as though being blunt, or even rude, is automatically bravely standing your ground. But authenticity is not a free pass to behave without kindness and grace.

Sometimes what’s named as ‘authentic’ is just a lack of generosity disguised as branding. And I’ll add this, because it’s part of how I see the world.

Kindness comes from within.
Which means how you respond when nobody is applauding you, is the real measure.

Remember:
You can be honest and still be kind.
You can be clear and still be decent.

You can decline without delivering a full manifesto.

If someone has trusted you, paid you, learned from you, or been part of your world in any way, then the standard is higher. Professional relationships do not cancel basic decency. If anything, they demand more of it.

So no, you do not have to love everything people create. You do not have to engage with everything they send. In fact, sometimes a thumb up goes a long way, and can feel a lot better than a blunt or rude answer.

And if all you can offer is a brief response, let it come from a place that doesn’t make someone regret reaching out.

And in the end, your response says far more about you than about whatever it was they shared.

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No wonder this can feel alienating. The women speaking about this new cycle are often in their early 50s. And while I think they are wise and have important things to say, the distance between early 50s and mid-60s is real. It shapes how life feels, what matters, and how we make sense of this stage.

We don’t speak, feel or think like them - and many of us don’t even act like them. So now what?

For one thing, we need a language for what is actually happening to us.

Many women in this part of life feel the same way as me; that something is shifting significantly. But when we hear women in midlife speak about that shift, it often feels like they we already lived much of it, and we need something else. A new language for how we feel and think.

In Human Design, we have cycles that describe the transitions we move through in life, through our 40s, 50s and beyond. In midlife, the cycle connected to our 50s, Chiron, is often seen as the most profound one, and the theory is that it does not simply pass and end. We keep it as a layer on top of our natal design. We speak about wisdom, healing, maturation and legacy. I get that.

Personally, though, when I read my Chiron chart, I can see that I lived so much of it without even knowing what Human Design was. That is what fascinates me. I can see how life added an important layer to me before I had any language for it. From the age of 49 until now, at 65, I have lived my Chiron deeply and learned so much through it. The strangest and most amazing part is, looking back I can clearly see that the shift really did happen when that cycle began.

Now, though, I need more. I want to learn something else. I have felt the new shift for a few years, and I want to understand the possibilities that lie in this cycle: my 60s. The transition has already happened, and I am more than ready to meet it consciously.

Why am I so eager to do that?

Nothing else quite captures the reality of being a woman who has already been through the fire, who has already carried her share, and who is now somehow expected to step down, pull back and retire. The truth is, I never thought that way when I was 50. Back then, I felt ready to begin again. I felt young, strong, adventurous and free. I quit my corporate job, purchased a one-way-ticket to the US, bought a car and drove out into the desert alone for three months. After that, I went to Encinitas and started my business, “Coffee&Coaching on The Beach”. I wasn’t thinking too much about the future.

That feeling of freedom is what still feels so alive to me now. I can feel a strong pulse of life, work, meaning and voice moving through me. This is not just an interesting framework to think about. For many women, it describes something they have been carrying, questioning and trying to understand for a very long time.

As I am studying Human Design, Chiron is interesting, but what really lights a fire in me at this stage in life is Second Saturn Return.

And just to be clear, I do understand that Chiron is something we live with for the rest of our lives. However, the lessons do not keep repeating once they are truly learned and the high vibe has been integrated. Chiron, in that sense, becomes the living of those lessons from there on. I’ve worked with many coaches who love to point at the shadow traits. I strongly believe in developing the strengths - and for that we do need the challenges. But not to dwell by, but to utilize the strengths and understand them.

So now, with the wisdom, the memory and the insight from Chiron already in the body, it is time for us “Second Saturn Returners” to take it further.

We can hold onto midlife, or we can accept the evolution into elderhood. And I want to rescue that word, because elderhood has been flattened into something far too passive. This is where Second Saturn Return becomes so interesting to me. We are not stepping back, becoming quieter, making peace with less, and gracefully accepting the edges of life.

That is not how this feels to me at all. It feels like a rise in voice, authority, clarity and relevance.

When I turned 60, the feeling of what matters and what doesn’t became so much stronger. I could feel a new voice ringing through. An urge to stop trying to be smart, if that makes sense. There was a new kind of drive pushing from the inside out, a need to come out and say it as I see it. A feeling that if anybody called me opinionated or too much, I would only see it as a compliment, not critique.

And that voice? It is female, strong, bold, and carries authority because the authenticity and integrity it springs from is no longer hidden behind the need to be polite or please anyone. There is substance behind what we say, and we are not here to play small any longer.

We ARE the Voices of A New Era.

So much of the language around age gets this wrong. The narrative says a woman’s power peaks earlier, and that later life is mainly about reflection and retreat. I don’t buy that for a second.

What I see are women who are no longer interested in spending precious energy on politeness when what they really want is integrity. I see older women whose voices carry more weight and sound louder than ever, even when they whisper, because life has tested them, stretched them, corrected them and taught them.

If you feel the same way, you already have a whole body of text inside you, ready to be sharpened into the important message you are longing to speak out loud.

Experience and authority do not sound the same as a voice still trying to prove itself. They have more depth and more edge. By 60, many of us are far less interested in pleasing just to make it easier for everyone else to hear what we have to say. We’re done being vanilla. We’re ready to be valued!

This is what lights me up about Second Saturn Return.
This is why I say we are The Voices of A New Era.

We are clear. Our voices have substance, range and authority.
And the world needs us!

My client looked at me. She wasn’t laughing or smiling or trying to take the edge off her words. She knew that wasn’t necessary. She knew I wasn’t offended. She knew, that I knew, that she was speaking a fact.

And you know what?
YOU should bring your quirks too! Bring your visions, your wisdom, your insights and your creativity. Bring your Thought Ledership.

Thought leadership isn’t picking up an old thought and then saying against it. And it It isn’t echoing what has already been said in slightly different words.

It’s the moment you stop trying to sound like you belong, and start speaking like you speak.

We’re trained to believe that being taken seriously requires a certain kind of voice. A certain kind of way. A certain kind of “professional.” And if you’ve ever been the quirky one, the one who sees the angle nobody else is naming, you learned early that your natural way of speaking can make people blink a little too hard.

So you adjust. You smooth it out and make it “edible”. You translate yourself into a version that won’t raise eyebrows in the room. You have a whole room nodding, but what you say no longer changes anything.

And then you wonder why your message feels like oatmeal. You wonder why people say, “This is so good,” or “This is SO inspiring!” and then do nothing.

Here’s the thing. Your quirks aren’t flaws like you’ve been led to believe. They are often the evidence that you are wired to perceive differently. And perception is where Thought Leadership begins.

Thought Leadership isn’t a marketing trick or a content strategy. It isn’t a personality trait you sprinkle on top of your business when you’re ready to “position” yourself.

Thought leadership is the willingness to name what you see, even when it’s not the popular way to see it. It’s the courage to offer a new idea, a new frame, a new interpretation.

And if you’re wondering why your quirkiness matters here, it’s because the people who move culture are rarely the ones who fit in. They are usually the ones who are slightly too honest, slightly too intense, slightly too early with what they notice.

That’s the point.

The world doesn’t need more people repeating the same advice in different frames. It needs people who can say, “Wait. Whaat?” People who can feel the missing piece and are brave enough to put their voice to it.

That’s what my client was recognizing in me. She wasn’t saying, “You’re weird” as in awkward. She was saying, “You’’re speaking a language I want to learn.”

Here’s the thing about Thought Leadership

You ARE different. You SEE different, you SPEAK different.

If you’ve been the weird one, the outsider, the loner, the one that went your own ways, you’re here to stand out, to lead and do wo with your differentiated way of seeing things.

You’re not here to coat your work in neutral language so it will pass the widest possible audience test. You’re letting your mind be your mind, and your voice be your voice, and your perspective be sharp enough to actually land with the community that needs YOUR voice, YOUR opinions.

The clients who are meant for you need you to be clear.

An edgy message has a point of view and makes the RIGHT people lean in. The rest will probably scroll past, and that’s okay.

If you’re a visionary, act like it. Visionaries don’t wait for consensus. They don’t wait for the industry to approve the language first. They put words to what’s emerging before other people even realize it’s there.

It does come with a cost. You WILL speak to crickets for a while before the right audience hears you. Your audience won’t be huge, at least not to begin. Some poeple may not like you. Please don’t let that make you play safe.

The right audience is looking for the one that makes them feel seen, and called forward, and slightly braver than they were before they found you.

So… you?
Are you the quirky one? The edgy one? The one who sees what other people do not?
If you are, what is the truth you’re ready to say as you see it?

The Voice of A New Era isn’t just one thing. It’s a foundation for my Thought Leadership - or one of them. Because, real thought leadership isn’t picking up a thought and following it. Real thought leadership is about being visionary, coming up with new ideas or new views on old things. It’s about innovation, and a new way of seeing and interpreting things.

To say it as I see it, means NEW, NEW, NEW!
and yes, thought leadership is saying it as you see it

I was never one of the cool kids. I was different. Most of the kids around me had brown hair, brown or blue eyes, and were average built.I was fair haired, had (and have) shifting eye color. I was slender, actually quite skinny. And that was what people could see.

Inside of me, I was stubborn, opinionated, I could see things other people could not. I called it out too. Some of my friends were slightly scared of me, because they felt I could see right through them. I learned early not to be too much in eye contact with people. It made them feel really uncomfortable.

So I stood out, and not always in a way that felt comfortable

Later in life, I got to know people who were much like me: weird, quirky, different. Who see things other people do not, who struggle with suppressing the need to address it.

Learning Human Design has meant a lot to me.
One of the most important learning points to me was the concept of invitation.

I was told that as a Projector, I’m supposed to wait for the invitation. However, there are also many traits in Human Design that are projected/invited, so Generator, Manifesting generators, Manifestors and Reflectors also have to sometimes wait for the invitation.

This puzzled me tremendously.
Wait for the invitation? Just sit there?? Do nothing? That could not be right!

It dawned on me in a group session I had. When a client asked me a question on how to do somehting she was stuck on. I started to answer, when she interrupted me and said: “Yes, yes! That’s exactly what I’m doing!” That’s when I really understood what that invitation is all about.

We’re not waiting for a verbal invitation. We’re listening for the energetic invitation.

So if you’re a Projector out there waiting, go and do something. Be visible. Speak your mind. Show people what you’re good at. Get known for something.

And remember: the invitation is energetical. Not (necessarily) verbal.

How about you?
Are you the quirky one? “The black sheep?” The kid nobody understood?

For most of my life, my voice has been strong, clear, and often ahead of the room. I have been the maverick, the rebel challenger, the one who names what others avoid. That part of me is real, and it has served me well.

However, lately, it has been softening.

It hasn’t disappeared. I strongly believe that everybody owns their own truth, no matter what. That conviction is still very much alive in me. What’s changing is the edge around it. The hard line. The need to push. That grip is loosening.

What’s emerging instead feels quieter, more spacious, and more rooted in my inner authority. It’s less about making a point, and more about noticing what is already true. Less force, more timing.

I’m learning that authority doesn’t need volume to be felt. That guidance can be gentle and still precise. That clarity often arrives when I stop chasing it.

This Substack is a place for that kind of noticing.

I won’t try to prove something here. I won’t try to package my insights into something provoking or shocking, the way I probably would have before. At the same time, I will absolutely write in a way you may find useful, not because I’m trying to be helpful, but because lived insight tends to be.

I’m in a season of shedding identities that once felt essential. So my efforts will come from alignment rather than hustle. My voice will come from confidence and inner knowing, rather than disruption and a feeling of the need to fight.

I’m also in a season of remembering. Self-trust. Inner authority. Being present.

This space is for thoughts and for talking about feelings for now. My new language is still forming. My ideas will be being tested gently, from the inside out.

Truth is huge for me.

I once lived by the pacific, and I thought that having a guitar so I can could sit on the beach and make music was a wonderful idea. So I went out to get a guitar at the thrift store. Long story short, I did not find that guitar, but I did come bck with a tattoo in my neck that read: Shin Jitsu, which means MY truth and THE Truth!

So… I’ll write when something feels true.
I’ll pause when it doesn’t.

That’s the only promise I’m making for now - and then we’ll see.

Jami